Ends by beginning.
Some said u'll live through your life once more the moment before ur death. The irony is, death is like a prelude to your life in such a situation.
The reason i'm inspired to write this probably can be relate back to the metaphorical near death experience just now, or u can put it that way, of coz, my life wasn't even near "physical" danger. Just the moment before i sleep(or near to sleep), lights of ideas flashed through my mind defying fears that held me back the whole night. All it takes to banish your mental block is prob just time, time alone, NOT by forcing a solution to remove the obstacles. Simply let the fears take over sometimes, until the "fears" tired down giving birth to "opportunities"
What seems like as an absolute end is actually the beginning of "the beginning".
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Friday, November 25, 2011
A Writing On 25th of November
A cup of nestum and 2 bars of cloud 9.
Those were my beginning meal of the day, apparently, my 1st status of the day, as well as my first breakfast of the month.
U wont exactly called it a breakfast, neither do i. A breakfast is the earliest meal of a day, but, do u called the meal served at the earliest hours of the day as breakfast? Or do u define breakfast as a meal that u have after the longest slumber of the previous day?
Of course, the definition is so personal that it can bubbles into infinite variations from person to person. How you depict a breakfast doesn't really helps in explaining the paradox of "breakfast", because for every questions of how, it always boils down to the letter "Y".
Time, it's sense of time, that frame the ways we see things, probably on everything.
Somebody takes sleeping as an indicator for time, after a sleep it considered a day, and breakfast is the 1st meal after a good night sleep (or prob good "day" sleep?). If that's the measurement for time, i'm experiencing 24++ hours a day right now, and that was not actually a breakfast that i have earlier this morning.
Some other people, for example, taking an alternative perception on time to see things.
Morning may seem to u as the moment after u wake up and sun rise from the east while night is the time u'll getting nearer to sleep in a world w/o daylight. To some, its how they feel at the moment that defines time.
To a mother, morning started even before sun rise as soon as she thinks of her beloved family, a moment, regardless how insignificant it is, filled with pure love and hope.
The realization of how miserable i am losing track of time struck my head in this rare occasion, as i watched the sun rise after staying up the whole long night.
" it's been a miserable night.", i told En.Azmi in a stress free manner, showing my unfinished plans and sections in the morning.
It's been such a long time since i actually watching sunrise, experiencing purely the moment, morning.
Those were my beginning meal of the day, apparently, my 1st status of the day, as well as my first breakfast of the month.
U wont exactly called it a breakfast, neither do i. A breakfast is the earliest meal of a day, but, do u called the meal served at the earliest hours of the day as breakfast? Or do u define breakfast as a meal that u have after the longest slumber of the previous day?
Of course, the definition is so personal that it can bubbles into infinite variations from person to person. How you depict a breakfast doesn't really helps in explaining the paradox of "breakfast", because for every questions of how, it always boils down to the letter "Y".
Time, it's sense of time, that frame the ways we see things, probably on everything.
Somebody takes sleeping as an indicator for time, after a sleep it considered a day, and breakfast is the 1st meal after a good night sleep (or prob good "day" sleep?). If that's the measurement for time, i'm experiencing 24++ hours a day right now, and that was not actually a breakfast that i have earlier this morning.
Some other people, for example, taking an alternative perception on time to see things.
Morning may seem to u as the moment after u wake up and sun rise from the east while night is the time u'll getting nearer to sleep in a world w/o daylight. To some, its how they feel at the moment that defines time.
To a mother, morning started even before sun rise as soon as she thinks of her beloved family, a moment, regardless how insignificant it is, filled with pure love and hope.
The realization of how miserable i am losing track of time struck my head in this rare occasion, as i watched the sun rise after staying up the whole long night.
" it's been a miserable night.", i told En.Azmi in a stress free manner, showing my unfinished plans and sections in the morning.
It's been such a long time since i actually watching sunrise, experiencing purely the moment, morning.
Finish writing on 26th November, in the night of 25th of November.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Where is the Love?
"In a hopeless place", Rihanna answered.
The video is about the juxtaposition of love and addiction. It's full of drugs, scumbags erotica n alcoholic bath.....Personally, i do fall in love with the video, mostly because of the message of the video and its videography. Prob once(or none at all? ;P) in ur lifetime u might catch into some bad romance, truthfully speaking, i had one of those in my distant past, too. Of coz, no drugs+sex+money+dirty things involved. ;)
Most of the time, be it it love, family or friendship, we should learn to STOP thinking at certain points. Im not a life guru, but, trust me, u are not solving anything at all. It is just u and the overflowing questions that drown u. =)
Friday, October 14, 2011
Mr Kael Whr R U?
Not that i gave up the blog, totally, NO. Yes, the blog is always on.
Having a busy life is not a reason for not blogging of coz. Juz picture when u haf to squeeze ya brain juice in writing , i mean, not only in blogging, like etc etc etc and etc .....can b a pain in da ass, moz of the time....
Wad i'd been doing lately is......nvm, those are too much to be put into words! ;P
Prob i should practice minimalistic writing especially when i haf no time to edit here and there and .....bla bla bla...
Thoughts lately, erm, nothing much other than my work...event...work....event...seminar and HEADACHE....Geez, not the kind of life u wan to get yaself into. Entertainment? Well, i dont think i haf much mood, most importantly time, for that right now.
I REALLY DAMMIT MISS MY 1ST YEAR!!!!!!!!(Im juz 2nd year, btw ;P)
Seeing
the awesome paintings by juniors, really, at some point, makes me wanna
draw a painting on the spot!!! So miss the fun of messing ard with art
and stuff. Miss the feeling of everything being so new to me!!! The
excitement of getting into a new circle of life, everything began anew.
It's kinda torturing actually when ya being placed in the same studio with
the first year, looking(or hearing) at them messing ard while me on the other hand,
suffering from high
blood pressure + fat non stop gaining+ unstoppable sore throat waves +
excessive caffeine consumption + split personality disorder +
unhealthy active mouth (for arguments or, war?) + compilations of
vulgar words + temporary memory lost + energy "still" deficiency
on the other side of the studio. Erm, to put it simple, the studio have
two poles, one is like Arctic while the other is like Hawaii.
Easier to comprehend.
Sorry if im not making any sense, as im entering experimental workbase this sem, well, i dun think i'll be making sense out of words or verbally. Perhaps its best to say, im making sense, but none of those human can make sense of, though. In short, im not making any sense at all. ;P However it is, it is still a good experience and great exposure. It is always what i wanted, to do something experimental and challenging, i know i always have the blood for it, i juz cant be satisfied easily. ;P
Overall, things are not that bad here, enjoy being emcee somehow, even though its tiring, EXTREMELY exhausting. Its a surprising experience, it's not a difficult task as many people may perceived, 1 lesson i got though. Prepare a script!!!!! Point being, eventually u wouldn't be following what's in the script, mind that the better script is prepared, the smoother the flow goes. The only one thing u should avoid, at all cost, being an emcee, is an awkward scene, n u haf to fastforward it immediately, by diverging attention to othr places/topic. Well, i think i did that quite well, LOLzz!! Freshie will always have awkward moment, ANYHOW. ;P
There's some photos i wanted to post, before i end my post, or else, i dunno when it gonna b published again. ;P
Rite now, i really do miss some(not all) precious times in holiday, with family n friends. =)
Having a busy life is not a reason for not blogging of coz. Juz picture when u haf to squeeze ya brain juice in writing , i mean, not only in blogging, like etc etc etc and etc .....can b a pain in da ass, moz of the time....
Wad i'd been doing lately is......nvm, those are too much to be put into words! ;P
Prob i should practice minimalistic writing especially when i haf no time to edit here and there and .....bla bla bla...
Thoughts lately, erm, nothing much other than my work...event...work....event...seminar and HEADACHE....Geez, not the kind of life u wan to get yaself into. Entertainment? Well, i dont think i haf much mood, most importantly time, for that right now.
I REALLY DAMMIT MISS MY 1ST YEAR!!!!!!!!(Im juz 2nd year, btw ;P)
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| Photo by Hyde |
Sorry if im not making any sense, as im entering experimental workbase this sem, well, i dun think i'll be making sense out of words or verbally. Perhaps its best to say, im making sense, but none of those human can make sense of, though. In short, im not making any sense at all. ;P However it is, it is still a good experience and great exposure. It is always what i wanted, to do something experimental and challenging, i know i always have the blood for it, i juz cant be satisfied easily. ;P
Overall, things are not that bad here, enjoy being emcee somehow, even though its tiring, EXTREMELY exhausting. Its a surprising experience, it's not a difficult task as many people may perceived, 1 lesson i got though. Prepare a script!!!!! Point being, eventually u wouldn't be following what's in the script, mind that the better script is prepared, the smoother the flow goes. The only one thing u should avoid, at all cost, being an emcee, is an awkward scene, n u haf to fastforward it immediately, by diverging attention to othr places/topic. Well, i think i did that quite well, LOLzz!! Freshie will always have awkward moment, ANYHOW. ;P
There's some photos i wanted to post, before i end my post, or else, i dunno when it gonna b published again. ;P
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| Top, Is thr sth darling? ; Middle, Of coz, azai!!! ; Bottom, Yes mum~ Cheeseee~ |
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| Friends are those who screw each other up and yet ended up together again and again above: 2003 ; below: 2011 |
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| Baby |
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| ASTC reunion, 2011 |
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| The Miss O gp~ Miss the Fridays in the high-school era, full of KFCs n Pizzas~ =) |
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Imma Big Mouth!!!!! |
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| Memorable moment hanging ard 2gthr, especially, when we're all grown-ups nw =) |
Rite now, i really do miss some(not all) precious times in holiday, with family n friends. =)
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Bedtime Stories 2: The Adjustment Bureau
I'd been into movies or literature of such theme, u can say its fantasy, or imagination, or even unrealistic. Well, the movie had brought your attention to such topic regarding the paradox of fate, the planned or the free will. The Adjustment Bureau, starring Matt Damon and Emily Blunt.
It's a science fiction movie, yet it is not type that is over-colored by the scientific elements or fantasy. The story revolves around the fate and decisions made for love between David Norris, an ambitious young congressman who runs an unsuccessful campaign after the exposure of his scandalous private life, and Elise Sellas, the successful dancer-to-be who inspired David's speech during his unsuccessful campaign. Even though they haven't seen each other after that day, David doesn't seems to just forget about her and craving with the idea of meeting with her again, even if he doesn't know what's her name.
Somehow, "fate" brought them together magically, in a chance which David accidentally sit next by her side in a bus. The meeting between the two eventually sparks alot of surprises and possibilities, however, those are not in "The Plan" of the organization which they called themselves, the Adjustment Bureau. As their name imply, they are the one who monitor the world according to "The Plan" in the book of the "Chairman", including the rise of "Renaissance" and the "Age of Enlightenment". Well, u may call them Angels, as they r like the metaphor of angels, who can open any doors traveling to anywhere u wanna go, like frm New York to China or maybe "Heaven", as long as they're wearing their specially made hat. According to them, David and Elise are supposed to meet only once and never meant to be with each other again in the future. Their meeting has been troubling them as thing goes off the track and way beyond their control.
Even after using radical method to prevent their meeting including threatening David, sacrificing Elise future and kidnapping them, which ultimately failed, The two lover finally defies "The Plan" successfully, with the help from one of the low ranking Adjustment Bureau, Harry, from the very beginning. And thus, "free will" wins, and it may not b necessary to accept whatever "fate" offered to us.
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| Emily Blunt as Elise Sellas, gorgeous! |
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| Referring to the book where "The Plan" is written, finding a route to escape "Fate". |
The adjustment bureaus, wearing hats that allowed them to travel to anywhere through ANY door...
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| Kissing scene, b4 they seal their fate? |
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| Left, Emily Blunt; Right, Matt Damon |
That is just a general brief about the story, a very interesting and authentic plot, which to me it's something new in terms of their way of expressing the theme and the value of the story. Not to mention the brilliant performance by the actors/tresses, especially the main characters. One might associate Matt Damon with the image of Bourne Ultimatum, apparently he plays quite well in the lover's role too, not being overly reacted or too plain. As for Emily Blunt, well, i just always love her. She's doing well in her role making the character very natural, and like David, i love the characters of Elise, sarcastic but fun, honest but sincere. In case u haf no idea who Emily is, perhaps these photos below might refresh your memory somehow(provided that u watched "The Devil Wears Prada" already)?
Well, here's a trailer for it, in case u still haven't gt wad i mean. It's definitely worth watching, story and plot wise, great and unique with true entertaining value; the actors performance, perfect. Forgot to mention, i love how they describe Heaven as the Corporate and "Chairman" as the "you know who He is". If you like Inception and other romantic comedy, well, you might love this one.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Bedtime Stories 1, The Girl Who Leapt Through Time
Before we jump to our topic............
As i posted on my FB wall b4, reason on picking d title is pretty much obvious already. From now on, the series of "Bedtime Stories" will b introduced to share some details bout my favorite movies or to b more precise, movies that i personally think worth watching.
Well, sharing is.....sharing. Point being, this are not about the reviews or any form of advertisements, purely about my thoughts and............about sharing. Lol. Naturally, it's our responsibility to widespread things that we like, ey? ;P
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Back to topic, i dunno whether ur an anime fan or prob part of the "anti-ism" community, but i do love anime, not till the point of obsessing of coz, perhaps itz juz a mild addiction? Not sure(;P), either ways, this is one good anime, by Mad House studio, "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time".
I randomly clicked on PPS and i wasn't even intentional to watch it, i was thinking this movie might provide some good bedtime story to turn on the sleep button in my brain. Ends up, it is quite a surprise. ;)
The story is generally about a girl who accidentally discover the time traveling ability, allowing her to jump through time whenever, wherever she wants. Though cheerful minded, considering bad luck and average herself, life change after she cheated death, and time. Almost got herself killed in an accident, her power somehow awakened, or i should just said, "activated", since doesn't really born this way. Imagine u can travel through time and alter the ending, what mistakes can't you possible undo?
Yet, when she thinks its for a better future and life, she had, at the same time, forsaking others. Unintentionally harming others, shes now begin to doubt herself and her life, as well as the lives of her buddies. Facing problems of friendships and relationships on the edge of nearly losing her friend, truth finally revealed, she's not alone and....a lot more plot twist happened ;P
Yes, like any other anime, teenage school girl possess extraordinary ability in some mysterious occasion life change and blah3...... However, it's not that typical as u think it is, no monster fighting here nor thin girls with strengths equivalent of elephants here....It's just like the extraordinary power here is doing a little magic to her ordinary life, yet, the end result of the wonderful magic is still, ordinary. There's no agent from somewhere come to stop you from inheriting such invincible power or you are being targeted as the price to be claimed. So, you don't need to worry it will goes over dramatic and unreasonable/unacceptable.
Interesting plot and decently rendered graphics (rarely abusing the use of LQ 3D graphics which appeared in moz anime nowadays), it actually considered to be an above average piece of movies. The most brilliant of all, the director successfully tells the story using the eyes of a simple teenage girl, making simplicity the essence of the movie, not more or less of it. Chilling, entertaining, and most importantly, simple, in a sense that, we can easily related to even we're not being able to jump through time.
To me, well, i dont think i need to jump through time to adjust things that "could have been" prevented. Im happy living right now and glad all that happened makes me who i am today. Question is, i dare to ask, are you? =)
As i posted on my FB wall b4, reason on picking d title is pretty much obvious already. From now on, the series of "Bedtime Stories" will b introduced to share some details bout my favorite movies or to b more precise, movies that i personally think worth watching.
Well, sharing is.....sharing. Point being, this are not about the reviews or any form of advertisements, purely about my thoughts and............about sharing. Lol. Naturally, it's our responsibility to widespread things that we like, ey? ;P
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Back to topic, i dunno whether ur an anime fan or prob part of the "anti-ism" community, but i do love anime, not till the point of obsessing of coz, perhaps itz juz a mild addiction? Not sure(;P), either ways, this is one good anime, by Mad House studio, "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time".
I randomly clicked on PPS and i wasn't even intentional to watch it, i was thinking this movie might provide some good bedtime story to turn on the sleep button in my brain. Ends up, it is quite a surprise. ;)
The story is generally about a girl who accidentally discover the time traveling ability, allowing her to jump through time whenever, wherever she wants. Though cheerful minded, considering bad luck and average herself, life change after she cheated death, and time. Almost got herself killed in an accident, her power somehow awakened, or i should just said, "activated", since doesn't really born this way. Imagine u can travel through time and alter the ending, what mistakes can't you possible undo?
Some scenes from the movie....
Traveling time by leaping through this "time lapse" dimension, with nice artwork
This scene is one of the scene i can relate the most, unlimited duration for singing K!!! Lolzz~
Yet, when she thinks its for a better future and life, she had, at the same time, forsaking others. Unintentionally harming others, shes now begin to doubt herself and her life, as well as the lives of her buddies. Facing problems of friendships and relationships on the edge of nearly losing her friend, truth finally revealed, she's not alone and....a lot more plot twist happened ;P
Yes, like any other anime, teenage school girl possess extraordinary ability in some mysterious occasion life change and blah3...... However, it's not that typical as u think it is, no monster fighting here nor thin girls with strengths equivalent of elephants here....It's just like the extraordinary power here is doing a little magic to her ordinary life, yet, the end result of the wonderful magic is still, ordinary. There's no agent from somewhere come to stop you from inheriting such invincible power or you are being targeted as the price to be claimed. So, you don't need to worry it will goes over dramatic and unreasonable/unacceptable.
Interesting plot and decently rendered graphics (rarely abusing the use of LQ 3D graphics which appeared in moz anime nowadays), it actually considered to be an above average piece of movies. The most brilliant of all, the director successfully tells the story using the eyes of a simple teenage girl, making simplicity the essence of the movie, not more or less of it. Chilling, entertaining, and most importantly, simple, in a sense that, we can easily related to even we're not being able to jump through time.
To me, well, i dont think i need to jump through time to adjust things that "could have been" prevented. Im happy living right now and glad all that happened makes me who i am today. Question is, i dare to ask, are you? =)
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Shouting Out is all it takes.
Shout out 1 : I WANT A CAMERA SO BADLY!!!!!!!!(my previous one defected already)
The desire prob was triggered by 大姐's(canton pinyin: Dai J) spontaneous+sarcastic remark when i lousily took a picture of her, which i volunteered to do so when nobody else willing(我没有那么伟大，只是不耐烦看着你推我让的场面). Probably its time to zip her mouth wf my "real kung fu"!!!!!!!!!! *wf fiery passions glowing in the eyes*
..... ..................Well, i do not even have a camera to start with. Hmm, fixing my defected camera doesn't seems like a practical idea at all. At the same cost, i better opt for another one. How i wish i can own a nice DSLR myself . Unlike in UTM, which i used to borrow cameras from here and there since i was surrounded by bunches of decent cameras here! Being here in Kampar, erm, i dont think that's quite the case when your friends are not that into photography(except Mr Hyde).....Erm, well, do u understand y i haven switch my profile pic, Miss XC? LOLzzz~ ;P
Plus, im somewhat lazy to edit photos when im free(yes im freaking free, and grow fatter and fatter, too ><!!!). I only love to edit photos when im doing my projects~ Odd, but its true. U can ask my ex-roommate, Wyngy. LOLzz, edittin photo can sometimes be a good escape when ya stuck in ya work....
Shout out 2 : I NEED TO BE MORE PERSISTENT TO MASTER(if possible) ADOBE AFTER EFFECT!!!
Tceh Ming, this is another good software to edit video, really soli laz time, coz i rarely(or nv) edit vids.....
It's definitely the right timing now to do so, since with Adobe After Effect, i can..........
1. Make my video presentation for my future projects, which is definitely benefits me alot in attempts to outshine.
2. I can make use of it for alot of events, like the upcoming Nocturnal and Pre-grad....
3. I don't need to rely on othrs help in makin vids, meaning, i'll be able doing whatever i like~~
4. Can make a Kaelogy vid? Hehehe~
5. And etc.......
After Effect is something like "Flash+2D/3D animations(simple one)+Video Edit+Photoshop".....In short, it's a photoshop for videos and animations. Words are not better explained without videos. Check out the few videos below demonstrating how Adobe After Effect can stun your eyes.
Fringe intro, by Andrew Kramer, a visual effect artist and filmmaker
Another one from him
Here are some "simpler" examples(ACTUALLY, these are still considered high level ;P)
This is from Sherlock Holmes the movie, end credits edited using adobe after effect~
Ok, here's a much more basic one.....
Cools isn't it? ;)
Shout Out 3: WOOTZZZ~ ITZ GAGA'S RIDE, ARE U PREPARED ENOUGH?
Here are some of her recent promo videos for MTV performance, check it out. The one Highlighted is a MUST WATCH!!!
Her P.O.V on Art~ Which is, a Lie....
In case u haven't watch, here is her latest "You & I" video, not the best in my list, yet, easily surpassed "Born this way" and "Edge of Glory" video~
The desire prob was triggered by 大姐's(canton pinyin: Dai J) spontaneous+sarcastic remark when i lousily took a picture of her, which i volunteered to do so when nobody else willing(我没有那么伟大，只是不耐烦看着你推我让的场面). Probably its time to zip her mouth wf my "real kung fu"!!!!!!!!!! *wf fiery passions glowing in the eyes*
..... ..................Well, i do not even have a camera to start with. Hmm, fixing my defected camera doesn't seems like a practical idea at all. At the same cost, i better opt for another one. How i wish i can own a nice DSLR myself . Unlike in UTM, which i used to borrow cameras from here and there since i was surrounded by bunches of decent cameras here! Being here in Kampar, erm, i dont think that's quite the case when your friends are not that into photography(except Mr Hyde).....Erm, well, do u understand y i haven switch my profile pic, Miss XC? LOLzzz~ ;P
Plus, im somewhat lazy to edit photos when im free(yes im freaking free, and grow fatter and fatter, too ><!!!). I only love to edit photos when im doing my projects~ Odd, but its true. U can ask my ex-roommate, Wyngy. LOLzz, edittin photo can sometimes be a good escape when ya stuck in ya work....
Shout out 2 : I NEED TO BE MORE PERSISTENT TO MASTER(if possible) ADOBE AFTER EFFECT!!!
Tceh Ming, this is another good software to edit video, really soli laz time, coz i rarely(or nv) edit vids.....
It's definitely the right timing now to do so, since with Adobe After Effect, i can..........
1. Make my video presentation for my future projects, which is definitely benefits me alot in attempts to outshine.
2. I can make use of it for alot of events, like the upcoming Nocturnal and Pre-grad....
3. I don't need to rely on othrs help in makin vids, meaning, i'll be able doing whatever i like~~
4. Can make a Kaelogy vid? Hehehe~
5. And etc.......
After Effect is something like "Flash+2D/3D animations(simple one)+Video Edit+Photoshop".....In short, it's a photoshop for videos and animations. Words are not better explained without videos. Check out the few videos below demonstrating how Adobe After Effect can stun your eyes.
Fringe intro, by Andrew Kramer, a visual effect artist and filmmaker
Another one from him
Here are some "simpler" examples(ACTUALLY, these are still considered high level ;P)
This is from Sherlock Holmes the movie, end credits edited using adobe after effect~
Ok, here's a much more basic one.....
Cools isn't it? ;)
Shout Out 3: WOOTZZZ~ ITZ GAGA'S RIDE, ARE U PREPARED ENOUGH?
Here are some of her recent promo videos for MTV performance, check it out. The one Highlighted is a MUST WATCH!!!
Her P.O.V on Art~ Which is, a Lie....
NOW, THIS IS HAWWWWTTT~ PAWS UP! ;P
In case u haven't watch, here is her latest "You & I" video, not the best in my list, yet, easily surpassed "Born this way" and "Edge of Glory" video~
Friday, August 12, 2011
Why the Ape is saying No?
"NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!" the apes said (shouted?).
What does that mean?
Well, he's just saying NO for NOT WATCHING the film,
"The Rise of The Planet Apes".
Finally got the chance to watch it in cinema, and i felt not a bit of regret/wasting watching it.
Great and authentic story, values and not to forget the striking graphics and the incredible manipulations of the apes emotions. In one of the scenes where the ape is getting abused with water from high pressure hose shooting it, that kinda reminds me of my own guilty act of getting the plastic out my dog's stomach(its extremely hyperactive and annoyingly mischievous) , by filling its stomach with water. I think my guilt is resonating with the scene as i felt that way of helping him is a little cruel, however, if im not getting the plastics out, probably my dog will ended up in heaven earlier? Of coz, i wasn't intended to hurt him (he paid bak by head thrusting me btw,ouch!), not any ways like the ways the actors treated the animals in the film.....back to topic. It is indeed a well crafted movie, with all the pieces of details put together carefully. Not quite a masterpiece yet, as the plot twist is a little predictable.
As most of the critics written on net, it is a commercial movie, still, probably among the bests of the category with the thought provoking materials and its brilliant depiction on the recurring contradicting elements in the story, evolution and degeneration; the wild and the civilized.
Anywayz i wont be making any spoiler here, just in case u haven watch......except......
The true actor behind the scene giving realistic 3d body and motion for the ape, Caesar.
What does that mean?
Well, he's just saying NO for NOT WATCHING the film,
"The Rise of The Planet Apes".
Finally got the chance to watch it in cinema, and i felt not a bit of regret/wasting watching it.
Great and authentic story, values and not to forget the striking graphics and the incredible manipulations of the apes emotions. In one of the scenes where the ape is getting abused with water from high pressure hose shooting it, that kinda reminds me of my own guilty act of getting the plastic out my dog's stomach(its extremely hyperactive and annoyingly mischievous) , by filling its stomach with water. I think my guilt is resonating with the scene as i felt that way of helping him is a little cruel, however, if im not getting the plastics out, probably my dog will ended up in heaven earlier? Of coz, i wasn't intended to hurt him (he paid bak by head thrusting me btw,ouch!), not any ways like the ways the actors treated the animals in the film.....back to topic. It is indeed a well crafted movie, with all the pieces of details put together carefully. Not quite a masterpiece yet, as the plot twist is a little predictable.
As most of the critics written on net, it is a commercial movie, still, probably among the bests of the category with the thought provoking materials and its brilliant depiction on the recurring contradicting elements in the story, evolution and degeneration; the wild and the civilized.
Anywayz i wont be making any spoiler here, just in case u haven watch......except......
Mini spoiler: Is it odd to name your pet Caesar? ;)
Not to make it sounds like an advertisement or being paid to promote the film, frankly speaking, it really deserved the praises and attentions it received.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Rubbish! Ur Gettin In My Way! Wait, is that me?
That's the quote of the day! Unrelated to the post anywayz~
It's a month away from now, before im gettin back...
It's always been good to stay at your hometown doing nothing and keeps on eating everyday. Get sometime to be with your mom and helping her out at her stall. Everyday looking forward to go home from work!!
Ah, wad a wonderful lifestyle ......................................................................................................................................................................
Actually, that doesn't sounds good at all, try imagine yourself doing these everyday accepting the "routine". Somethings should always remained in small quantity in order to balance the quality of it......
The most tragic, of coz, is that im missing alot of MOVIESSSSSSS!!!!! It's the peak month of the year for "great" movies , yet, im missing most of it!!
Captain America, Harry Potter, Apes.......Please!! Dun left me behind.......
Tyren's car gt sandwiched, Mr.Hyde vanish into the fourth dimension called MMU *poof*, others are like busying their own thing/college still on. Most importantly, my impossibly terrible driving skill is hindering me from driving out of 20km radius from my house. ARGGHHHH!!!! KAMPAR, PLEASE GET A CINEMA!!!
Well, good news is, MBO is under construction now (in Kampar old town area, near my place)! Hopefully, Hopefully, can get it done by next year, before my next end-year break.
Life can be sucks without these few things:
1) Love(any kinda form, including ur love to your puppy, i hate mine, by d way)
2)Money(Do i need to explain?)
3)Internet(Duh?)
4)Laptop(If anything happened to your desktop....)
5)Moviesss!!!!
6)Gossips( Juz admit. K? ;P)
7)Camera(Im gotta get it!! not so soon.....>,<)
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Other than sitting there reviewing my gain and loss by comparing btw staying in Kampar and Skudai, of coz, i also have dedicated some times for the next big event of "Architech"(the society's name), Malam Silaturahim.
The name of the event will be "NOCTURNAL". Not "nok-chun-nal" or "knock-Tuna-al".....It pronounce as "NOK-TURN-NAL". Lolzz, those are the funny things that i gt when im suggesting the name, well, undeniably, it's rarely used in conversation, plus, the first time i get in touch with the word is actually from playing a game which also called, "Nocturne". While "nocturnal" is kind of a derivative from the word.
Setting theme is not really something easy to do. Getting all people to get a common goal, most of the time, is even harder. Well, at least for now, we finally got this settled, leaving, still, TONNES of jobs to be accomplished.................................
O, and i heard somebody saying bout getting the event to Mersing (D'Rimba??)!!!
So, a beach party is what they wanted ey? Uh....wow, it's a truly "bloody" devastating idea.......暂时没眼看.....*eyeballs rolling*..........
.........................hopefully i got better mood in my next pose......... ;P
Anywayz, hope everything gets better in days ahead! =)
It's a month away from now, before im gettin back...
It's always been good to stay at your hometown doing nothing and keeps on eating everyday. Get sometime to be with your mom and helping her out at her stall. Everyday looking forward to go home from work!!
Ah, wad a wonderful lifestyle ......................................................................................................................................................................
Actually, that doesn't sounds good at all, try imagine yourself doing these everyday accepting the "routine". Somethings should always remained in small quantity in order to balance the quality of it......
The most tragic, of coz, is that im missing alot of MOVIESSSSSSS!!!!! It's the peak month of the year for "great" movies , yet, im missing most of it!!
Captain America, Harry Potter, Apes.......Please!! Dun left me behind.......
Tyren's car gt sandwiched, Mr.Hyde vanish into the fourth dimension called MMU *poof*, others are like busying their own thing/college still on. Most importantly, my impossibly terrible driving skill is hindering me from driving out of 20km radius from my house. ARGGHHHH!!!! KAMPAR, PLEASE GET A CINEMA!!!
Well, good news is, MBO is under construction now (in Kampar old town area, near my place)! Hopefully, Hopefully, can get it done by next year, before my next end-year break.
Life can be sucks without these few things:
1) Love(any kinda form, including ur love to your puppy, i hate mine, by d way)
2)Money(Do i need to explain?)
3)Internet(Duh?)
4)Laptop(If anything happened to your desktop....)
5)Moviesss!!!!
6)Gossips( Juz admit. K? ;P)
7)Camera(Im gotta get it!! not so soon.....>,<)
_________________________________________________________________________________
Other than sitting there reviewing my gain and loss by comparing btw staying in Kampar and Skudai, of coz, i also have dedicated some times for the next big event of "Architech"(the society's name), Malam Silaturahim.
The name of the event will be "NOCTURNAL". Not "nok-chun-nal" or "knock-Tuna-al".....It pronounce as "NOK-TURN-NAL". Lolzz, those are the funny things that i gt when im suggesting the name, well, undeniably, it's rarely used in conversation, plus, the first time i get in touch with the word is actually from playing a game which also called, "Nocturne". While "nocturnal" is kind of a derivative from the word.
Setting theme is not really something easy to do. Getting all people to get a common goal, most of the time, is even harder. Well, at least for now, we finally got this settled, leaving, still, TONNES of jobs to be accomplished.................................
O, and i heard somebody saying bout getting the event to Mersing (D'Rimba??)!!!
So, a beach party is what they wanted ey? Uh....wow, it's a truly "bloody" devastating idea.......暂时没眼看.....*eyeballs rolling*..........
.........................hopefully i got better mood in my next pose......... ;P
Anywayz, hope everything gets better in days ahead! =)
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Life as My Mom's Sidekick - Some Thoughts...
I didn't know how or why, I survived!
Gosh!
If u allow, may i ask you a question? If your mom is a hawker, will you, as a son or daughter, help her out marking down orders/delivering orders/collecting the bows and plates scattering throughout the hawker centre/washing dishes endlessly,BARE hand/getting cheated by some scrums for just the 1 or 2 ringgit change(n u cnt argue back,MOST OF THE TIME) or will you stay for like 10 hours there in the small non ventilated area where u'll b soaked by your sweat and be suffocated by the smell of the chicken soups everyday?
Seriously, no matter how many perfume u used, it just wont cover that smell...........No, im not talking bout my body smells, it's my Bag!!!! My poor nike bag, please forgive me.
I constantly get challenged by the people around me, usually by the ways they look at me and the questions they asked, out of curiosity( or doubtfulness).
"Why would you help your mom? Didn't you go to school/study?"
It really isn't bothering asking questions like these, however, when the questions repeated themselves, you'll just grow tired, eventually, fed up especially when they are from the same person!
And thus, i will usually reply them, "Im studying seventh form(since they always assume im Form4-6)."
The uncles around the area usually joking about me, saying,"Your mom is cruel, having a uni student to work in a place like this,"
You see, i do not have the most luxurious holiday nor do i busy for alot of events/functions.
Yes, im saving some money and Yes, im saving some Times too( u c, life as an architecture student dont have much holiday, after their 1st year- heard from my seniors)
The people i usually surrounded by, are from all walks of life, each with different thought and language.
The old, the young, the gossips mangets, the vain groups, the rich, the poor, and the miserable, not to forget some cheaters/conman/assholes.
When i studied carefully, they all have different interpretation of "me", regarding my identity. Some think im the pity boy got dragged by the misfortune of the family; some assume me deserved to "be like this" probably because they always failed to seek vengeance on my parents; some think it's harsh to have a son working around areas like "this".....Despite all the bad one, some still think im the good boy who helps out my mom; some praised me for my deed; some teach me some their knowledge regardless whether that will be useful in my position; some even share their own story and past to me.....
After i ponder sometimes, i realized.....
I truthfully feel nothing bad helping out my mom, at all, it is nothing to be proud of nor to be ashamed of.
I have friends who usually get proud of some smallest achivement till the level they have topped the national list; i also have friends who feels extremely embarrassed of taking a little more time reversing their car. Worst of all, some are soclever cunning that they kept their arrogance hidden beneath the cloak of his/her humbleness.
Yes, nothing to be proud of, nothing to be ashamed of, in whatever you do.
Despite today's society being brainwashed by the promises of the capitalistic Utopia,
I had hardly found the distinction between capitalism and aristocracy, as if they are inseparable just like the faces of coins, they are just like the different facets of the coin.
"The fittest survive", from the classical idealism of Darwin's evolution theory. Yet, many have misinterpreted the meaning of it. The "Fittest", as if?
Perhaps im dragging it to further from my topic, however, if you think carefully, they are connected. Everything is connected.
Well, it's not like i have gain nothing from the holiday. Probably the thoughts blossoms from the experience may paves more paths and options in choosing who i wanted to be.
Regardless, Now is still the Best! =)
Gosh!
If u allow, may i ask you a question? If your mom is a hawker, will you, as a son or daughter, help her out marking down orders/delivering orders/collecting the bows and plates scattering throughout the hawker centre/washing dishes endlessly,BARE hand/getting cheated by some scrums for just the 1 or 2 ringgit change(n u cnt argue back,MOST OF THE TIME) or will you stay for like 10 hours there in the small non ventilated area where u'll b soaked by your sweat and be suffocated by the smell of the chicken soups everyday?
Seriously, no matter how many perfume u used, it just wont cover that smell...........No, im not talking bout my body smells, it's my Bag!!!! My poor nike bag, please forgive me.
I constantly get challenged by the people around me, usually by the ways they look at me and the questions they asked, out of curiosity( or doubtfulness).
"Why would you help your mom? Didn't you go to school/study?"
It really isn't bothering asking questions like these, however, when the questions repeated themselves, you'll just grow tired, eventually, fed up especially when they are from the same person!
And thus, i will usually reply them, "Im studying seventh form(since they always assume im Form4-6)."
The uncles around the area usually joking about me, saying,"Your mom is cruel, having a uni student to work in a place like this,"
You see, i do not have the most luxurious holiday nor do i busy for alot of events/functions.
Yes, im saving some money and Yes, im saving some Times too( u c, life as an architecture student dont have much holiday, after their 1st year- heard from my seniors)
The people i usually surrounded by, are from all walks of life, each with different thought and language.
The old, the young, the gossips mangets, the vain groups, the rich, the poor, and the miserable, not to forget some cheaters/conman/assholes.
When i studied carefully, they all have different interpretation of "me", regarding my identity. Some think im the pity boy got dragged by the misfortune of the family; some assume me deserved to "be like this" probably because they always failed to seek vengeance on my parents; some think it's harsh to have a son working around areas like "this".....Despite all the bad one, some still think im the good boy who helps out my mom; some praised me for my deed; some teach me some their knowledge regardless whether that will be useful in my position; some even share their own story and past to me.....
After i ponder sometimes, i realized.....
I truthfully feel nothing bad helping out my mom, at all, it is nothing to be proud of nor to be ashamed of.
I have friends who usually get proud of some smallest achivement till the level they have topped the national list; i also have friends who feels extremely embarrassed of taking a little more time reversing their car. Worst of all, some are so
Yes, nothing to be proud of, nothing to be ashamed of, in whatever you do.
Despite today's society being brainwashed by the promises of the capitalistic Utopia,
I had hardly found the distinction between capitalism and aristocracy, as if they are inseparable just like the faces of coins, they are just like the different facets of the coin.
"The fittest survive", from the classical idealism of Darwin's evolution theory. Yet, many have misinterpreted the meaning of it. The "Fittest", as if?
Perhaps im dragging it to further from my topic, however, if you think carefully, they are connected. Everything is connected.
Well, it's not like i have gain nothing from the holiday. Probably the thoughts blossoms from the experience may paves more paths and options in choosing who i wanted to be.
Regardless, Now is still the Best! =)
Saturday, July 9, 2011
D.D.D.D = "Dev" is Dancin in D Dark!
Remember her?
Like a G6, like a g6~
That's Dev, the 22 yrs old artist now debuting her new single "Dancin in The Dark". Nice summer hit, though u might found some resemblance of "Like A G6" somehow, or is it just me? BTW, i like the video. Fabulous style, hills of hands, snake of temptation. n the Lil' Monster's paws.....I wont say the video is "better" than Gaga's "Edge of Glory", while both lacking of actual plots, i just found it much more interesting than "E.O.G" anywayz ;P
Like a G6, like a g6~
That's Dev, the 22 yrs old artist now debuting her new single "Dancin in The Dark". Nice summer hit, though u might found some resemblance of "Like A G6" somehow, or is it just me? BTW, i like the video. Fabulous style, hills of hands, snake of temptation. n the Lil' Monster's paws.....I wont say the video is "better" than Gaga's "Edge of Glory", while both lacking of actual plots, i just found it much more interesting than "E.O.G" anywayz ;P
Cover artwork for her latest single, "Dancin in the Dark"
Below is her new video for the song, enjoy, be free and dance in the dark!
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Natalia Kills - Free (ft. will.i.am)
Simple video, simple song.
Simple, yet wonderful sparks.
A song by the sophisticated and talented Perfectionist, Natalia Kills.
Chill and be Free~ ;)
Simple, yet wonderful sparks.
A song by the sophisticated and talented Perfectionist, Natalia Kills.
Chill and be Free~ ;)
Sunday, June 26, 2011
The Dilemma of Moving Forward
Complaining and comparing, well, they are simply from the same family. How can you complain without even comparing? It's a very subjective thought, but hey, just find some times, sit down without music on and think deeply with silence. Where does it leads to, eventually?
Choosing Finding jobs seems like a proper action to take next, i'm not that motivated somehow, since.....I highly doubt that part-timers who works oni for two months (like me) are popular in the job market right now, provided it is not the gold-harvesting season (yet), especially in Kampar. How i missed my last job being a teacher, even though i have to travel back-and-forth all the way from Kampar to Tanjong Tualang on daily basis. Regular holidays, attractive salary packages which includes quite a sum of allowance, "challengin" journeys with lots of surprises even though with a fixed daily routines(personally think its awesome while most finds it stressing ;P), the "cute" students, and the nostalgic moments spending in the school(recalling my high school years).....well, with all these "positive" remarks, it definitely covers up all the down-sides.
Even though it was just a short period, honestly, i was devoting in the job and that attitude had got me lots of enlightening experience which i can't possibly get or comprehend as a student. Possessing the eyes of the all-seeing teacher while still being student-minded, i understood myself much more better. Sometimes, i will associate myself with some of those who carries the shadows i familiar with, seeing the bigger picture and learned from them, how they told my story, and giving me a new perception on myself. Who's the teacher and who's the student?
Stop!
I should stop being so picky right now! It's definitely the best time to make some savings for the sakes of better living during new semester which is just 2 months ahead from now. However, what drags me off is the need to pull myself off from the needs of worrying and just have some precious and thoughtful moments for myself before back to my ordinary hectic life.
What should i do? Hmmm...........
Pray i not regret in my next decision.....
Even though it was just a short period, honestly, i was devoting in the job and that attitude had got me lots of enlightening experience which i can't possibly get or comprehend as a student. Possessing the eyes of the all-seeing teacher while still being student-minded, i understood myself much more better. Sometimes, i will associate myself with some of those who carries the shadows i familiar with, seeing the bigger picture and learned from them, how they told my story, and giving me a new perception on myself. Who's the teacher and who's the student?
Stop!
I should stop being so picky right now! It's definitely the best time to make some savings for the sakes of better living during new semester which is just 2 months ahead from now. However, what drags me off is the need to pull myself off from the needs of worrying and just have some precious and thoughtful moments for myself before back to my ordinary hectic life.
What should i do? Hmmm...........
Pray i not regret in my next decision.....
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
After Light, Night Falls.
Time to rest, truly rest.
It's been 1/2 yr since i last saw my dad, a year in architecture, 1+1/2 yrs since EGS ended, 2 yrs i bid my old life farewell, and 4 yrs from my depressed old self.
I'm probably the luckiest person in the world, to have gone through these, with smiles and people supporting me. It doesn't matter what i'd been through anyway, it's matter who i am now, detached from the haunting images of the past or the fear of unpredictable future. Looking at me now, i'm still ok, that makes me proud . That meant more than anything to me, senses of living, at the present. It is indeed, contenting to count down till the end of a day, with every tiny moments u have in a day. It doesn't matter how grand or dramatic one's living is, adventure is always not about how good it looks, it's always matter how you paint your colours on it, making sparkle out of little thing. With all the sparks gather, it's form larger sparks, firework!
2 months of holidays, after Terang workshop, before the beginning of another semester. From junior to senior, well, i feel less psychological changes compared to my highschool years, in terms of identity and thoughts. A sign of mature perhaps? Or just that i'm still as young as my (future)juniors? Haha, i don't really bother that much on that aspect. All i noe is to make friends, stay happy, n keep my complaints as little as possible.
Before i'm 20, i was always so driven to achieve more and more, as a proof i'm not as weak as others perceived. Now that i'm 21, well, i finally understand one simple thing. Journey, created men; Men, in turn, created journey. Where we from, tells nothing about us.
A reminder to all including myself, Indulge yourself, have fun and dare to be wrong, in whatever things ya in. Now, it seems to me having good time in what we're doing matter the most in life. It's a tragic to live in a way that u can't enjoy whatever your doing, because, how can u even understand the meaning of being happy and contended?
To experience to the highest; to live to the fullest.
You need not any more things, other than you and Now, with joy and love.
Passion.
It's time for me to take a break, 2 months holidays, perfect timing for me to both reflect my past and indulge myself living in simplicity. =)
It's been 1/2 yr since i last saw my dad, a year in architecture, 1+1/2 yrs since EGS ended, 2 yrs i bid my old life farewell, and 4 yrs from my depressed old self.
I'm probably the luckiest person in the world, to have gone through these, with smiles and people supporting me. It doesn't matter what i'd been through anyway, it's matter who i am now, detached from the haunting images of the past or the fear of unpredictable future. Looking at me now, i'm still ok, that makes me proud . That meant more than anything to me, senses of living, at the present. It is indeed, contenting to count down till the end of a day, with every tiny moments u have in a day. It doesn't matter how grand or dramatic one's living is, adventure is always not about how good it looks, it's always matter how you paint your colours on it, making sparkle out of little thing. With all the sparks gather, it's form larger sparks, firework!
2 months of holidays, after Terang workshop, before the beginning of another semester. From junior to senior, well, i feel less psychological changes compared to my highschool years, in terms of identity and thoughts. A sign of mature perhaps? Or just that i'm still as young as my (future)juniors? Haha, i don't really bother that much on that aspect. All i noe is to make friends, stay happy, n keep my complaints as little as possible.
Before i'm 20, i was always so driven to achieve more and more, as a proof i'm not as weak as others perceived. Now that i'm 21, well, i finally understand one simple thing. Journey, created men; Men, in turn, created journey. Where we from, tells nothing about us.
A reminder to all including myself, Indulge yourself, have fun and dare to be wrong, in whatever things ya in. Now, it seems to me having good time in what we're doing matter the most in life. It's a tragic to live in a way that u can't enjoy whatever your doing, because, how can u even understand the meaning of being happy and contended?
To experience to the highest; to live to the fullest.
You need not any more things, other than you and Now, with joy and love.
Passion.
It's time for me to take a break, 2 months holidays, perfect timing for me to both reflect my past and indulge myself living in simplicity. =)
Sunday, June 5, 2011
In a Dark Time like this..........
Obesity took over the day!!!!!
Shyt!!!!! I seriously need to work out ad!!! After Terang workshop of course.
A filler post, for sure.....Sometimes, i feel like i should have just post on Twitter but the problem is, who's goin to bother it when u haf like "zero" friends who used twitter? Hmmm.......USE TWITTER PLEASE!!!!
Well, that doesn't mean that i would abandon my blog, just that when i wanted to post something short, blog seems unsuitable, ey? Posting on FB is over exposed sometimes consider everybody is equally nude on FB.
So, twitter???
Shyt!!!!! I seriously need to work out ad!!! After Terang workshop of course.
A filler post, for sure.....Sometimes, i feel like i should have just post on Twitter but the problem is, who's goin to bother it when u haf like "zero" friends who used twitter? Hmmm.......USE TWITTER PLEASE!!!!
Well, that doesn't mean that i would abandon my blog, just that when i wanted to post something short, blog seems unsuitable, ey? Posting on FB is over exposed sometimes consider everybody is equally nude on FB.
So, twitter???
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Not Failure, Low Aim Is A Sin
It must be borne in mind that the tragedy of life doesn’t lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.
It isn’t a calamity to die with dreams unfulfilled, but it is a calamity not to dream. It is not a disaster to be unable to capture your ideal, but it is a disaster to have no ideal to capture.
It is not a disgrace not to reach the stars, but it is a disgrace to have no starts to reach for.
Not failure, but low aim is sin.
- Benjamin Elijah Mays
May life be peace... epic...and whatever
A long time of silence for the blog it has been.
In this time, i didn't wanted to get into anything, a moment for me to sit there just silently, be a silly staring into the blank.
Well, fortunate enough, the long semester break came just in time as the remedy for my exhausting months of dramatic life. It's not the princesses chaotic relations nor the mysteries behind all the evil schemes, well, life just get tiring when all things keeps on changing all the time, at least i'm still obsessed with bright blue skies and ......hate the random hanging of my laptops.
However, that's the beauty of living, ey? If plans and orders dictated the basis of life, how much different between the living and the dead? Even mother earth might spawn tsunamis and earthquakes spontaneously at will ;P.
Apparently, i'm managed to survive in UTM without the oppressive silence of Wyngy's mood swing and the ongoing pitch-y and bitchy noises of the gals filling the empty voids of time......Thank god, i'm just mildly masochistic....phew~
Sometimes, we need honesty, regardless it might be ruining the situation. The impact of honesty is life long, however, u mite utter in the series of unfortunate events once u converted urself into the religion of liars. Indeed, it happened, in the lives of people around me. Frankly speaking, i dont feel like an outsider in such an event, i just fear that i may not play my role well, everyday trying my best to lighten the burdens of my loved ones, but things just get out of hand. If u ask me, well, i'm not fully committed to this role.
May i say sorry that may never be heard.
May my life be peace, epic and whatever.
In this time, i didn't wanted to get into anything, a moment for me to sit there just silently, be a silly staring into the blank.
Well, fortunate enough, the long semester break came just in time as the remedy for my exhausting months of dramatic life. It's not the princesses chaotic relations nor the mysteries behind all the evil schemes, well, life just get tiring when all things keeps on changing all the time, at least i'm still obsessed with bright blue skies and ......hate the random hanging of my laptops.
However, that's the beauty of living, ey? If plans and orders dictated the basis of life, how much different between the living and the dead? Even mother earth might spawn tsunamis and earthquakes spontaneously at will ;P.
Apparently, i'm managed to survive in UTM without the oppressive silence of Wyngy's mood swing and the ongoing pitch-y and bitchy noises of the gals filling the empty voids of time......Thank god, i'm just mildly masochistic....phew~
Sometimes, we need honesty, regardless it might be ruining the situation. The impact of honesty is life long, however, u mite utter in the series of unfortunate events once u converted urself into the religion of liars. Indeed, it happened, in the lives of people around me. Frankly speaking, i dont feel like an outsider in such an event, i just fear that i may not play my role well, everyday trying my best to lighten the burdens of my loved ones, but things just get out of hand. If u ask me, well, i'm not fully committed to this role.
May i say sorry that may never be heard.
May my life be peace, epic and whatever.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Ok, I JUST POST.
Sometimes, u want to live in a fiction.
So that, u can be somebody else. U always look up to somebody and wanted to be him, or her. Sometimes, you just want to be accepted, by people who u hardly agree or compatible. And sometimes, you will just too hate yourself, for the flaw than can never be perfected. Sounds like a time for Chicken Soup for Soul?
Hell, is this even related to what im gonna write. Whatever it is.......
There are actually dozens of draft before this one. I do not find a suitable one to post. Some advise me to post randomly. Erm, ya, this means i m posting randomly, actually.
I haf one post titled "Marsian under Venus Colonisation", funny, it's all about my recent life and thoughts to live through all the cats fight and the endless cycle of drama, changes of relationship and friendship in swift(within the years). I really want to post it, hell, something i hafta complain, i'll make sure it's through my mouth, REALLY(?). Well, it haven't been perfected, so i'll just make a short note here. There are two extreme radical type of venus colonization, which i have experienced, the Loud (can nv b diam) and the Diam-ned (dun get cheated by the softness of the exterior). I have experimented, that, the same sentence (with exactly same meaning of no offence) said at different time and mood, they can give me totally different interpretation/reaction. The two radicals are being friends, and enemy at the same time. To me, and lucky me, I m simple enough to not comprehend the complication they undergone. My mom said to me, "Of all the people, never believe women's words.(天下之大，女人的话最不能信）". Understand me, im not complaining, but im here to declare, imma victim of the colonization (i think).
So, i only wish for one thing, treat me like a gay guys, pervert, whatever u can think it as a guy, but never treat me, see me, and think me, understand me, feel me, as a girl.
NO OFFENCE. I'm just growing tired.
Does this post sounds retarded? Hmmm....well, i can care less. ;)
Well, i did promised for the previous months updates right? Cumin up after this retarded post
End of my retarding complaints.
So that, u can be somebody else. U always look up to somebody and wanted to be him, or her. Sometimes, you just want to be accepted, by people who u hardly agree or compatible. And sometimes, you will just too hate yourself, for the flaw than can never be perfected. Sounds like a time for Chicken Soup for Soul?
Hell, is this even related to what im gonna write. Whatever it is.......
There are actually dozens of draft before this one. I do not find a suitable one to post. Some advise me to post randomly. Erm, ya, this means i m posting randomly, actually.
I haf one post titled "Marsian under Venus Colonisation", funny, it's all about my recent life and thoughts to live through all the cats fight and the endless cycle of drama, changes of relationship and friendship in swift(within the years). I really want to post it, hell, something i hafta complain, i'll make sure it's through my mouth, REALLY(?). Well, it haven't been perfected, so i'll just make a short note here. There are two extreme radical type of venus colonization, which i have experienced, the Loud (can nv b diam) and the Diam-ned (dun get cheated by the softness of the exterior). I have experimented, that, the same sentence (with exactly same meaning of no offence) said at different time and mood, they can give me totally different interpretation/reaction. The two radicals are being friends, and enemy at the same time. To me, and lucky me, I m simple enough to not comprehend the complication they undergone. My mom said to me, "Of all the people, never believe women's words.(天下之大，女人的话最不能信）". Understand me, im not complaining, but im here to declare, imma victim of the colonization (i think).
So, i only wish for one thing, treat me like a gay guys, pervert, whatever u can think it as a guy, but never treat me, see me, and think me, understand me, feel me, as a girl.
NO OFFENCE. I'm just growing tired.
Does this post sounds retarded? Hmmm....well, i can care less. ;)
Well, i did promised for the previous months updates right? Cumin up after this retarded post
End of my retarding complaints.
Friday, April 8, 2011
A confession....
Let's admit, we all did silly things, and sometimes (in fact most of the time), we do it rightfully wrong. By action, or by mouth. Fault is a fault, u cannot change it. Doing wrong right or doing wrong wrong? I'm always aware of it. However the thing is, we learned from mistakes, only if we're doing wrong right.
D story? Did i mention it's a confession? ;)
D story? Did i mention it's a confession? ;)
Friday, April 1, 2011
Geez.........
Busy doesn't mean hectic, but definitely indicating my works are getting more challenging....
A lot have happened, but didn't really get the time or mood to post cuz my god dam life had been taken over by the insurmountable work loads.................Honestly, if i have time, i would sleep, deeply!
In high school, we got excited with this cute innocent idea of "No Sleep Tonight!", how "eye-rolling" we are......
Simply a filler post, i just wish everything goes right and i want scholarship, scholarship, scholarship and scholarship!!!!!!
More post coming up in April........if everything goes right..........
A lot have happened, but didn't really get the time or mood to post cuz my god dam life had been taken over by the insurmountable work loads.................Honestly, if i have time, i would sleep, deeply!
In high school, we got excited with this cute innocent idea of "No Sleep Tonight!", how "eye-rolling" we are......
Simply a filler post, i just wish everything goes right and i want scholarship, scholarship, scholarship and scholarship!!!!!!
More post coming up in April........if everything goes right..........
Sunday, March 20, 2011
The Girl from Ipanema
By Astrud Gilberto and Stan Getz
Itz a nice, chilling oldies... Listen to it, when ur in the mood~
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Things to inform u guys.....
K....herez da thing....
Heard some rumors whr u haf to send ya Lappie to factory if ya screen got problem or u cannot claim it even with warranty. Truth is, juz call the technical support, which i did it in my case, n hell yeah, 20 minutes of home services ended my 3 months of worries!
Point being,sometimes MOST OF THE TIME,opinions are alwayz juz opinions, YOUR ACTION is better than words, not a better expression, but a better proof of who i m.
Ok....i noe im startin to spin off from the topic again....Well, thatz all im gonna say, for now.
*Seriously, if ya lappie gt any problem, at all, simply call the technical support. Juz ignore those "warranty useless","they dun cover", "find d pc shop across the street to fix it" n othr unclaimed bullshyt. It's ALWAYS ur right to find out the truth YOURSELF.
Heard some rumors whr u haf to send ya Lappie to factory if ya screen got problem or u cannot claim it even with warranty. Truth is, juz call the technical support, which i did it in my case, n hell yeah, 20 minutes of home services ended my 3 months of worries!
Point being,
Ok....i noe im startin to spin off from the topic again....Well, thatz all im gonna say, for now.
*Seriously, if ya lappie gt any problem, at all, simply call the technical support. Juz ignore those "warranty useless","they dun cover", "find d pc shop across the street to fix it" n othr unclaimed bullshyt. It's ALWAYS ur right to find out the truth YOURSELF.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
And Thus.....
The hardest time of the week, of course, u can guess, ey?
Just revisited the photos from the past, photos of everyone, friends and family.
Don't wanna waste too much time with the dead objects, this will be very short.
I'll be back to UTM 2ml.
Well, he has finished his journey, guess it's my time to move on too.
The mood now is the most intense, however, i should also get over it..
It's childish to hate a thing because just a moment of disappointment.
Till i get back, this home, will become better, no matter where we are.
是时候，继续迈进未完成的数十年。
Just revisited the photos from the past, photos of everyone, friends and family.
Don't wanna waste too much time with the dead objects, this will be very short.
I'll be back to UTM 2ml.
Well, he has finished his journey, guess it's my time to move on too.
The mood now is the most intense, however, i should also get over it..
It's childish to hate a thing because just a moment of disappointment.
Till i get back, this home, will become better, no matter where we are.
是时候，继续迈进未完成的数十年。
A lil' Light still Sparklin' in The Dark
From this.......
to this!
I know the details might be a little awkward, this is the staircase that i rushed before the last few hours heading back to Kampar. It should looks more better than that but i'm satisfy with it, at least the form is still there and it do not deviate much from the original thought. I ventured a lot for this staircase, in the sense that i figure out the structural system myself, since there are not much staircases out there that support by tensional force, my precedence studies rather focus on the cable system that worked on bridges. In the end, it surprised me, because the big D do possess strong stability. Well, in real life, is it possible to build this? I believe it is possible. Anyways, in a time like this, at least, thr is still some lil thing that delighting mood. Perfect or not, its my baby, and i can nv deny my love to him her(some refer to the backdrop as the father while the curved I-column as the Great Mother)
photography by SP .Tan
Monday, March 7, 2011
Anywhere, but here
And then the milliner, and the man
Of the appalling trade,
To take the measure of the house.
There'll be that dark parade
Of tassels and of coaches soon;
It's easy as a sign,--
The intuition of the news
In just a country town.
Of the appalling trade,
To take the measure of the house.
There'll be that dark parade
Of tassels and of coaches soon;
It's easy as a sign,--
The intuition of the news
In just a country town.
Came as a shock, i had received 16 missed calls from my bros n sis, intuitively knowing these calls must be another sign of the upcoming tragic event. After returning call to my brother, my breath pause for a moment, i can sense the chills penetrating deep into the bottom of my heart, my hands began to shook unwillingly. For a moment of blank, i felt nothing, completely empty and lost. Noises in the studio gradually grown louder. This is the moment that i had lost someone important in my life for the first time.
Got back to Kampar 6am on Friday and it's raining. The moment i saw my dad's photo, well, tears are not shading, perhaps i have cried enough for things that had been going on and on lately, already knowing that his death is already near anytime, but my heart became heavier. Maybe due to some past events, i'd been masking myself ever since. I know what lies beneath my face of abnormally calm. I'm still feeling uneasy about it, however, this feeling did not make that much impact as other imagined that i might have been reacted far more worse than that. Not only after looking at the peaceful look on my dad's face, i felt lifted a bit, at least, it's in his own will to accept his final rest.
I already numb seeing the crying face of people. There are people who kept silent all along the funeral, there are also people who are complete strangers showing sympathy and there is no questioning about their sincerity. There are also these people who came in for a short while without any eyes contact with us and then left unnoticed, as if what they care is the juicy gossips to be distributed throughout the whole town. Worst of all, there are also people who i kept asking myself, "are they crying for real?"
Though, I received some messages, be it in Fb or sms, i was surprised that thr r some of those messages from people who i'd lost contact for long time ago and also people who i barely knows. In a time like this, i'm glad to know who my true friends really are. They never fail supporting me in the time of harshness not only this time, but for the past few years of hardest moments in my life, they're always willing to stand besides me and lend their ears even when they are not around. I'm greatly blessed with these friends. Thank you guys! Ur supports are one of the greatest blessing in my life!
This town, that i once called home, once a place that full of faces that i was familiar with is now becoming complete stranger to me. I'm tired with all the misunderstanding, scandals, cheating, tragedies and heart-breaking events that happened in this place.
The reason that i love this place is solely because of my friends and family. Of course, that does not mean that i want to leave this place and never come back again.....perhaps a break from here i what i need the most.
before i end.........
Dad, thank you so much for all that u gave me. I miss u so much and i'll be stronger and always have ya lessons learned, in this lifetime. Rest in peace.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Bonjour
I have these bad habits....
I kept repeating myself," I have a lot of work and i'm busy."
In reality, i did produce something while having my eyes lay on the laptop, fingers on keypad W, A, S, D.
I tried to keep myself awake from late night - early morning wanting to produce something in the end with efficiency.
In reality, flows of avi's and wmv's playing from nite till morning, my efficiency = 30%......unfortunately.
Consequence is, I'm tiring myselfslacking to keep the balance between work and pleasure.Honestly, i have to take action in changing my off balance life style by altering the schedule! Most importantly, improve my time management of course.....Really? *doubting*
STPM results finally out!!! FYI, none of my business (Mr Hyde, 满意?) . Recalling those days of struggle between excitement and disappointment, now i only hope those juniors will enjoy the remaining SIX months of torments ahead~ Nah~ Im not that wicked....*wink*
It's been a while i updated my status....so....let's begin with......
We had quite alot of workshops lately, though i didn't actually attend most of them, but this is the one i actually attend. Recognize the drawing? Familiar? It's Dato Lat signature in my sketch book!!! Sadly, i didn't have the chance to take photograph with him, cuz the photographer off to sumwhr else ad(my camera is officially RIP)..... If u dont noe who is Dato Lat, as a Malaysian, probably u should know Malaysia famous comic "Kampong Boy"? Ey? U can also found his drawing in New Straits Times...
I kept repeating myself," I have a lot of work and i'm busy."
In reality, i did produce something while having my eyes lay on the laptop, fingers on keypad W, A, S, D.
I tried to keep myself awake from late night - early morning wanting to produce something in the end with efficiency.
In reality, flows of avi's and wmv's playing from nite till morning, my efficiency = 30%......unfortunately.
Consequence is, I'm tiring myself
STPM results finally out!!! FYI, none of my business (Mr Hyde, 满意?) . Recalling those days of struggle between excitement and disappointment, now i only hope those juniors will enjoy the remaining SIX months of torments ahead~ Nah~ Im not that wicked....*wink*
It's been a while i updated my status....so....let's begin with......
This!!!!!!!!!!
His comics are always about his perception on today's so called "Modern" world, teasing the modern culture but hilariously convey important messages n lessons perhaps our generation had forgotten.
random sketches during his workshop....draw according to his slides...
O.....he's our next project client......... HOLAOEH!!!
Talking about "project" (the term that WynGy afraid the most....), i'm currently working on a staircase for the FAB building. Well, wad to say....hellats of works,as usual. We are to design a structurally impressive staircase for the FAB....
A lousily done working model....Well, at least it is still able to illustrate the general concept. In the drawing, the string and the big D part actually seems like a Pirahna~ Lolz!!
Generally, this project is a lot more peaceful i will said, compared to the last project, when everyone was working in groups. Well, designers "in groups", ya noe ~
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Im On a Right Track and I was Born this way!
Put ya paws up, cuz u were born this way~
After listening for the first for the first few times, honestly, i don't find it as addictive as Just Dance or Telephone, BUT, its catchy, and i was surprised, because i dont really got the same feel of the Gaga from Monster...Yep, juz like ppl on the net wud said, itz really Madonna...THEY SAID itz kinda resemble "Express Urself" of Madonna, which is a great pop hit in d 1989...is it juz me or wad-so-ever factor it is, i can really hear some "It's so Cool" + "I will Survive" + some "Glee" elements (the way she sings)...........
I was expectin THIS kinda style more....somehow~ Perhaps its more tastier to be a hungry monster?
Well, i admit my expectation is higher, but, her "Bad Romance" used sounds so "eww..." to me and her Alejandro wasn't as catchy and significant as her Telephone...ya noe, itz GAGA~ Lolzz! Eventually she made me listened to her Bad Romance ard 40++ times on itune, as for Alejandro, i lost count of it....
so, wadya' think? ;)
After listening for the first for the first few times, honestly, i don't find it as addictive as Just Dance or Telephone, BUT, its catchy, and i was surprised, because i dont really got the same feel of the Gaga from Monster...Yep, juz like ppl on the net wud said, itz really Madonna...THEY SAID itz kinda resemble "Express Urself" of Madonna, which is a great pop hit in d 1989...is it juz me or wad-so-ever factor it is, i can really hear some "It's so Cool" + "I will Survive" + some "Glee" elements (the way she sings)...........
I was expectin THIS kinda style more....somehow~ Perhaps its more tastier to be a hungry monster?
Well, i admit my expectation is higher, but, her "Bad Romance" used sounds so "eww..." to me and her Alejandro wasn't as catchy and significant as her Telephone...ya noe, itz GAGA~ Lolzz! Eventually she made me listened to her Bad Romance ard 40++ times on itune, as for Alejandro, i lost count of it....
so, wadya' think? ;)
Friday, February 11, 2011
E.S.W,N
Had the title gotcha' figurin wad it means at first glance?
Ok.....i'll stop making a big round*chin-glish* for the explanation.
E= east, S=South, W=West, and N=North.
Point? No point at all!!! HAHAHAHA *laming.....pls b patient ^^"*
Haven't update since 1st of February, hope its Feb-ulous month, though i do not really have a great start for the month. As i always said, a lot had happened, but here is the thing, u are Born This Way......*continue, after the break*
*continue*.......such that no matter how mad or fucked up thing can goes, u will still have to continue living/ keeping track of time. So, y not rock ya way like the world is gonna ends like hell anywayz? Dont get me wrong, my point being, would u prefer to live a slave of things that u can't change ended up insanity, or u can juz live just......day by day with different stories?
I think that is over-share by d wayz, shud stop sharin i guess ;P
O, i haven mention CNY stuff like all the other bloggers did~
To begin with.....Gong Xi Fat Chai!!!!
Guess its not TOO late, even if it still late ;P
CNY is used to be the loveliest celebration in a year, i mean, it still is, anywayz, thanks to the messy yet hectic schedule, most people already vanished by the fourth day of CNY, including me. Dam, i missed the CNY which i have more time to waste around the tv with my family and waiting for my chinese zodiac reading of the year and shandy and PS-ing non stop....Nvm, hopefully next i'll be having 15 days of holidayz during nxt yr CNY, so, imma so anticipatin for the nxt CNY!!!! Applause!!! (Forgot to mention one very serious matter, I MISSED THE FOOD SO DAM FREAKIN BADLY!!!!!)
Ok.....i'll stop making a big round*chin-glish* for the explanation.
E= east, S=South, W=West, and N=North.
Point? No point at all!!! HAHAHAHA *laming.....pls b patient ^^"*
Haven't update since 1st of February, hope its Feb-ulous month, though i do not really have a great start for the month. As i always said, a lot had happened, but here is the thing, u are Born This Way......*continue, after the break*
Born this way, 1st single of her 2nd album, premiere today, 11/2/2011, 6.00am USA time, 7.00pm Malaysia time!!!! Do check out her site. FYI: i do not own this image, its taken from her site!! * Imma so anticipating rite now!!! ><*
*continue*.......such that no matter how mad or fucked up thing can goes, u will still have to continue living/ keeping track of time. So, y not rock ya way like the world is gonna ends like hell anywayz? Dont get me wrong, my point being, would u prefer to live a slave of things that u can't change ended up insanity, or u can juz live just......day by day with different stories?
I think that is over-share by d wayz, shud stop sharin i guess ;P
O, i haven mention CNY stuff like all the other bloggers did~
To begin with.....Gong Xi Fat Chai!!!!
Guess its not TOO late, even if it still late ;P
CNY is used to be the loveliest celebration in a year, i mean, it still is, anywayz, thanks to the messy yet hectic schedule, most people already vanished by the fourth day of CNY, including me. Dam, i missed the CNY which i have more time to waste around the tv with my family and waiting for my chinese zodiac reading of the year and shandy and PS-ing non stop....Nvm, hopefully next i'll be having 15 days of holidayz during nxt yr CNY, so, imma so anticipatin for the nxt CNY!!!! Applause!!! (Forgot to mention one very serious matter, I MISSED THE FOOD SO DAM FREAKIN BADLY!!!!!)
Im bring my UTM Lean counterpart bak town n PuiSee is showing her new gain UM最高理事
CEO prowess by posing no more "V"
CEO prowess by posing no more "V"
At Kbox wf the guys and the only girl~ Itz always like this!
Huh, my life in Uni is gettin more n more archi ad....We thought 1st sem will b d start of the "Architorture", oni when i bak to UTM after CNY, i realised the true startin is yet to come. People from other courses will always tell me, "Get ya life!"....Duh, of coz i wanted to juz hang out whenever and get to be the most "un-busy" ppl in the uni to join many clubs in the uni and got involved in alot of function/event....blah blah blah. Those are just bubble dreams when u are studyin' architecture. Probably different from other ppl who get into uni, most of the time they just pick this subject with low cutting mark or simply pilih je, i enter architecture with my own will very clear that i want it. So, sometimes, im just tired people saying, especially the "neighborhood" where they will always said "luckily i'm not studying this course". Dunno y but SOMEHOW i get annoyed n i give them this "H.A.H.A" look replying them in my heart, "Urgghh, im unlucky eh?". Am i being sensitive? Nah, simply Fat Lan Zha(in english its frustrated or in modern term frustrated and emo)...Getting alot of worksss to do, not really ;p Simply just some homework for CNY but i kept delaying my work to after CNY, which is the reason why i didn't sleep for the last two day and the 1st few days when i got back to UTM.
I was really really really sleepy this morning, Dr Rubi asked me how old she is. I said 50++ and she immediately give me this "ALAMAK" respond and wanted to strangle me on the spot. She then explained wanted to contrast n to show how young i am to said im sleepy in the morning, though i think nowadays its the norm of this n the coming generations ;P...Then Sp whisper during the "aftermath", "sui la u!"....Sorry, few days w/o sleeping already makes Kael a noob boy....@@
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Baby January
It's my birthday month, and i didn't have the chance to use any of the birthday month offers, sigh........
Perhaps i'm too busy? Nah, not really.......
.....um.....
Seriously, i really do not have any time to do other things like go to watch movie every weekend, window/target-lock shopping, writing a few drafts for my blog, browsing things i'm interested on the net, day-dreaming, jogging (i dont think it's in my daily routine, though ;P)...
Days passing by faster, and i'm gettingolder (*choy!I'm still young wad!*) more mature =)
It's my birthday not long ago(a week ago? XP), luckily it's Sunday, PHEEEWWW~ Sunday is kinda like a stress free day, work free day(not really), class free day, punctuality free day(so dat i can sleep longer..) and argument free day! ;)
Me lay down in my shelter~ not completely comfortable as u can see ;P
My China friend, Meow Shi, i call him, Cat
Perhaps i'm too busy? Nah, not really.......
.....um.....
Seriously, i really do not have any time to do other things like go to watch movie every weekend, window/target-lock shopping, writing a few drafts for my blog, browsing things i'm interested on the net, day-dreaming, jogging (i dont think it's in my daily routine, though ;P)...
Days passing by faster, and i'm getting
It's my birthday not long ago(a week ago? XP), luckily it's Sunday, PHEEEWWW~ Sunday is kinda like a stress free day, work free day(not really), class free day, punctuality free day(so dat i can sleep longer..) and argument free day! ;)
I'm eating Kimchi Ramen~ And it taste not bad, RM16.90 (of coz...=.=)
Three Hiao Poh (Xc: Wo bu shi!!!)
From left: Gan, Xc, Poh
WynGy, apparently taking break from emo cycle, enjoying his green tea....
XC expensive Bento...cost almost RM30.00....
Arrggghhhh!!! Not pain at all.....
I don't need to explain what this indicate....
The 6!!!( one is missing coz buying lady gaga t-shirt for me in SG)
Zhilin: I love that shirt vy much!!! Thx!!!! Imma monster!!!
And of coz, thanks for the cakes!!! I love the Marble Cheesecake!!!
And finally, our(Gan,Cat, and me) baby was born on 27th January, in D'Rimba, Mersing, Johor!!!! It's the shelter project i talked about before, well, as you can see, it's not that much of a tent, since its not waterproof, but, come on, we are to design a "delightful" shelter that celebrates the site and the view!
Its a sculpture, a furniture, and a shelter, mainly just to shade the harsh sunlight by filtering the sun ray with the baby blue fabric. I was worried ALOT before the shelter assembled but after all, it did stand for a very long time, i would expect it to be the least stable of all, but it turns out it can withstand the strong winds n stand for a nite (IF w/o rain XP)! Well, the shelter making trip is really delightful, in the sense that we can see our absurd design taking form in real life, regardless the crits and the assessment, woo~ Simply amazing! By the way.....the sea over there is not much of a sea, since it dunnot smell like the actual sea did... XP
The owner of the beach said there are raw gold ores around the shores, but im not digging it ;P
Morning breeze......
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