Radiance, lost?

Ever living one day in your life, laughter, disgusted u?

Maybe what we all need, is not a troubling humors, a distant smile, an unreachable laugh, or the merciless judgmental comments.

Why do things have to work in ur way and not others?
Why must thing work in others way and not my way in my life?
That's the contrary between me and you.

I seek not through the brightness, nor through the beauty.
I seek, only what i needed, and what's meant for me.

I need not the shiniest to blind my way,  as my path ahead still looks no different with them.

Bright enough, that will be a clearer path up ahead even that is not the most radiant of all, but humble.
Simple, warmth and genuine; Forgiveness, understanding and acceptance.

That's the radiance i lost; That's the brilliance i need.

Yet to be found. =)

A lil' Delight, A lil' Dancin', A lil' Dizziness

Feels like wanted to take a break from the breathless class schedule and the mountainous workload. Hectic lifestyle? Not quite, i think the unevenly distributed daily schedule is the one to blame, since i can tip the balance between play more or work more. ;P

Delicious desserts, photos taken by my friend.

Well, u can consider goin' to a prom faculty's nite a form of entertainment, even though only i eat, eat, eat and eat my RM70. Erm, foods are pretty ok(of coz >.<), so as the location and the dining hall, within the cozy yet luxurious Pulai Spring Resort, which is not far from the uni.

 Hmm......It's not bad actually considerin' it's the first (chinese) faculty's nite ever for our faculty of built environment. Most 1st years from different subject also involved in organizing the event,performing ,presenting and "the rest ya noe" stuff, except for us, which we really wanted to join (partially true XP), but our course works are too heavy already, to burden us some more with other activities is definitely a suicidal mission. Sometimes, i just wonder how did some of our seniors(though itz jus a few, out of hundreds? Lolzz~) manage to join this and join that and might sacrifice their holiday (sometimes) for the activities.

"Supposedly" Fac King Zhen and nice nice senior Karen.

 On my right hand side, landscape archi beauty, Jenny Fer Tan

 Our new 1st year member, Ah Sim (red shirt)!!! Lolzz

Archi and the the only few sc.construction guys.

 This is not the only one with closed eyes (i did the same thing in most of the photos)

bottom row: Azai and Taschi

Rather being a good boy head back to the dorm and sleep early for tomorrow's work, me with the rest of the gang went clubbing with the final year seniors at Cabana JB, just for a short while.................................................not really! ;P

What's in Ur Cup to Start A Day?

Good day, folks!
Ended my emo cycle, lazy engine is back to normal, emotional and stress level are at equilibrium now, another public holiday, too bad that i woke up early naturally and having a cup of Nescafe. ;P

It's a rare phenomena that my roommate is still snoring silently, completely unconscious of time. Dam, i should sleep longer but dunno why i feel so good, probably i'd finally regain my human sense of time? XP

Anywayz, he was bak frm studio yesterday ard 5am in the morning, logically he will sleep longer! By that time, i'm still dreaming of Meow helping assemble all the things while Gan is trying her very best doin' her own job separated from him and i was the one who's pointing here and there, feels good watching the 2 and how they react with each other! I'm wicked!!! >.<

Apparently, we(me n the course mates) are proceeding with our beach shelter project, in which we required to design and build our own shelter on the site, Teluk Resang, sumwhr in Johor punye Mersing, i guess. It's a fun project, never the less (as usual), a lot of brain storming, argument and efforts(time) are dedicated to the project. A lot of us had been doing the design that is syok sendiri on the papers, now is the time we paid for it...Whatever it takes, i just want to see my baby take form! HAHAHAHA~ (N again, as usual, i always love to syok sendiri ;P)

Thr are more updates actually, but i think its time to sign off n bak to work! I'll try to keep my updates as frequent as possible ~

Hit a day with a nice song, who cares whether the day is rough?
I'm juz like the millions other fans of the blue sky...
Alicia Keys asked : "Doncha know (sky is blue)?"

I'm Not A Boy, Not Yet A Man

"The unreachable always taste the worst", the words from someone who can never get what they want.
To prove it, think of the word "nostalgia". The past, when things were still the way they "meant to be", is what we yearning all this time, right?

Probably time moves on, i change. I dont know how much. The way i think? The way i speak? My perception on people? My sets choices? My own boundaries of reality and imagination? My desire? My goal? My perception on the people close to me? My own definition of reality and realistic?

I can only said i changed under circumstances.

I used to think fast and joke a lot; i used to voice out just anything that came across my mind; I used to laugh out loud without even concealing my hideous teeth in public; I used to spoil around with stranger and still be fun with them; I used to be talkative to stranger; i used to be care free of what's next.

Today, someone speak out loud to me, "为什么还要虚伪？(Why r u acting fake?)"

All this time, i am a "fake" and insincere person to them.

Probably there is no need to explain or to tell people who i am, because i dont think words convey the very truth from the bottom of one's heart. I will never struggle to prove. I will only like to say, as much as i care about work, i also care about u as a friend of mine. I am not being fake, but i am caring how u mite think and feel and being responsible for my own words at the same time.

I admit i am ego, maybe i am fear of losing the chances and everything i worked for will meant for nothing, and maybe i am just fear of becoming nothing. Probably this fear had been governing me all this time unconsciously and changed me to who i am today, but my thoughts do not only centering myself.

To people who are still living on a bed of roses, u might not understand how life goes on when u have nothing. I am just another ordinary person with my own story and apparently going through hardship. 

Maybe i am still unable to overcome this fear right now, yet, i believe these are all part of becoming someone better and stronger, and most importantly, it's life.

There is nothing to be regret of being of who i am, and i will never stop attempting to be better.
Viva La vida!

We No Speak Americano

Came across this nice n funky song , very old school, simply love it! U muz listen to it in case u haven't!



The original Italian oldies version of the song.