And Thus.....

The hardest time of the week, of course, u can guess, ey?

Just revisited the photos from the past, photos of everyone, friends and family.
Don't wanna waste too much time with the dead objects, this will be very short.
I'll be back to UTM 2ml.

Well, he has finished his journey, guess it's my time to move on too.
The mood now is the most intense, however, i should also get over it..

It's childish to hate a thing because just a moment of disappointment.
Till i get back, this home, will become better, no matter where we are.

是时候，继续迈进未完成的数十年。

A lil' Light still Sparklin' in The Dark

From this.......

to this!

I know the details might be a little awkward, this is the staircase that i rushed before the last few hours heading back to Kampar. It should looks more better than that but i'm satisfy with it, at least the form is still there and it do not deviate much from the original thought. I ventured a lot for this staircase, in the sense that i figure out the structural system myself, since there are not much staircases out there that support by tensional force, my precedence studies rather focus on the cable system that worked on bridges. In the end, it surprised me, because the big D do possess strong stability. Well, in real life, is it possible to build this? I believe it is possible. Anyways, in a time like this, at least, thr is still some lil thing that delighting mood. Perfect or not, its my baby, and i can nv deny my love to him her(some refer to the backdrop as the father while the curved I-column as the Great Mother)

photography by SP .Tan

Anywhere, but here

And then the milliner, and the man
Of the appalling trade,
To take the measure of the house.
There'll be that dark parade

Of tassels and of coaches soon;
It's easy as a sign,--
The intuition of the news
In just a country town.

Came as a shock, i had received 16 missed calls from my bros n sis, intuitively knowing these calls must be another sign of the upcoming tragic event. After returning call to my brother, my breath pause for a moment, i can sense the chills penetrating deep into the bottom of my heart, my hands began to shook unwillingly. For a moment of blank, i felt nothing, completely empty and lost. Noises in the studio gradually grown louder. This is the moment that i had lost someone important in my life for the first time. 

Got back to Kampar 6am on Friday and it's raining. The moment i saw my dad's photo, well, tears are not shading, perhaps i have cried enough for things that had been going on and on lately, already knowing that his death is already near anytime, but my heart became heavier. Maybe due to some past events, i'd been masking myself ever since. I know what lies beneath my face of abnormally calm. I'm still feeling uneasy about it, however, this feeling did not make that much impact as other imagined that i might have been reacted far more worse than that. Not only after looking at the peaceful look on my dad's face, i felt lifted a bit, at least, it's in his own will to accept his final rest.

I already numb seeing the crying face of people. There are people who kept silent all along the funeral, there are also people who are complete strangers showing sympathy and there is no questioning about their sincerity. There are also these people who came in for a short while without any eyes contact with us and then left unnoticed, as if what they care is the juicy gossips to be distributed throughout the whole town. Worst of all, there are also people who i kept asking myself, "are they crying for real?"

Though, I received some messages, be it in Fb or sms, i was surprised that thr r some of those messages from people who i'd lost contact for long time ago and also people who i barely knows. In a time like this, i'm glad to know who my true friends really are. They never fail supporting me in the time of harshness not only this time, but for the past few years of hardest moments in my life, they're always willing to stand besides me and lend their ears even when they are not around. I'm greatly blessed with these friends. Thank you guys! Ur supports are one of the greatest blessing in my life!

This town, that i once called home, once a place that full of faces that i was familiar with is now becoming complete stranger to me. I'm tired with all the misunderstanding, scandals, cheating, tragedies and heart-breaking events that happened in this place.

The reason that i love this place is solely because of my friends and family. Of course, that does not mean that i want to leave this place and never come back again.....perhaps a break from here i what i need the most.

before i end.........

Dad, thank you so much for all that u gave me. I miss u so much and i'll be stronger and always have ya lessons learned, in this lifetime. Rest in peace.

Bonjour

I have these bad habits....

I kept repeating myself," I have a lot of work and i'm busy."
In reality, i did produce something while having my eyes lay on the laptop, fingers on keypad W, A, S, D.

I tried to keep myself awake from late night - early morning wanting to produce something in the end with efficiency.
In reality, flows of avi's and wmv's playing from nite till morning, my efficiency = 30%......unfortunately.

Consequence is, I'm tiring myself slacking to keep the balance between work and pleasure.Honestly, i have to take action in changing my off balance life style by altering the schedule! Most importantly, improve my time management of course.....Really? *doubting*

STPM results finally out!!! FYI, none of my business (Mr Hyde, 满意?) . Recalling those days of struggle between excitement and disappointment, now i only hope those juniors will enjoy the remaining SIX months of torments ahead~ Nah~ Im not that wicked....*wink*

It's been a while i updated my status....so....let's begin with......

  This!!!!!!!!!!

We had quite alot of workshops lately, though i didn't actually attend most of them, but this is the one i actually attend. Recognize the drawing? Familiar? It's Dato Lat signature in my sketch book!!! Sadly, i didn't have the chance to take photograph with him, cuz the photographer off to sumwhr else ad(my camera is officially RIP)..... If u dont noe who is Dato Lat, as a Malaysian, probably u should know Malaysia famous comic "Kampong Boy"? Ey? U can also found his drawing in New Straits Times...

His comics are always about his perception on today's so called "Modern" world, teasing the modern culture but hilariously convey important messages n lessons perhaps our generation had forgotten.

random sketches during his workshop....draw according to his slides...

O.....he's our next project client......... HOLAOEH!!!

Talking about "project" (the term that WynGy afraid the most....), i'm currently working on a staircase for the FAB building. Well, wad to say....hellats of works,as usual. We are to design a structurally impressive staircase for the FAB....

 

A lousily done working model....Well, at least it is still able to illustrate the general concept. In the drawing, the string and the big D part actually seems like a Pirahna~ Lolz!!

Generally, this project is a lot more peaceful i will said, compared to the last project, when everyone was working in groups. Well, designers "in groups", ya noe ~

Im On a Right Track and I was Born this way!

Put ya paws up, cuz u were born this way~



After listening for the first for the first few times, honestly, i don't find it as addictive as Just Dance or Telephone, BUT, its catchy, and i was surprised, because i dont really got the same feel of the Gaga from Monster...Yep, juz like ppl on the net wud said, itz really Madonna...THEY SAID itz kinda resemble "Express Urself" of Madonna, which is a great pop hit in d 1989...is it juz me or wad-so-ever factor it is, i can really hear some "It's so Cool" + "I will Survive" + some "Glee" elements (the way she sings)...........

I was expectin THIS kinda style more....somehow~ Perhaps its more tastier to be a hungry monster?


Well, i admit my expectation is higher, but, her "Bad Romance" used sounds so "eww..." to me and her Alejandro wasn't as catchy and significant as her Telephone...ya noe, itz GAGA~ Lolzz! Eventually she made me listened to her Bad Romance ard 40++ times on itune, as for Alejandro, i lost count of it....
so, wadya' think? ;)

E.S.W,N

Had the title gotcha' figurin wad it means at first glance?

Ok.....i'll stop making a big round*chin-glish* for the explanation.
E= east, S=South, W=West, and N=North.

Point? No point at all!!! HAHAHAHA *laming.....pls b patient ^^"*

Haven't update since 1st of February, hope its Feb-ulous month, though i do not really have a great start for the month. As i always said, a lot had happened, but here is the thing, u are Born This Way......*continue, after the break*

Born this way, 1st single of her 2nd album, premiere today, 11/2/2011, 6.00am USA time, 7.00pm Malaysia time!!!! Do check out her site. FYI: i do not own this image, its taken from her site!! * Imma so anticipating rite now!!! ><*

*continue*.......such  that no matter how mad or fucked up thing can goes, u will still have to continue living/ keeping track of time. So, y not rock ya way like the world is gonna ends like hell anywayz? Dont get me wrong, my point being, would u prefer to live a slave of things that u can't change ended up insanity, or u can juz live just......day by day with different stories?

I think that is over-share by d wayz, shud stop sharin i guess ;P

O, i haven mention CNY stuff like all the other bloggers did~
To begin with.....Gong Xi Fat Chai!!!!
Guess its not TOO late, even if it still late ;P
CNY is used to be the loveliest celebration in a year, i mean, it still is, anywayz, thanks to the messy yet hectic schedule, most people already vanished by the fourth day of CNY, including me. Dam, i missed the CNY which i have more time to waste around the tv with my family and waiting for my chinese zodiac reading of the year and shandy and PS-ing non stop....Nvm, hopefully next i'll be having 15 days of holidayz during nxt yr CNY, so, imma so anticipatin for the nxt CNY!!!! Applause!!! (Forgot to mention one very serious matter, I MISSED THE FOOD SO DAM FREAKIN BADLY!!!!!)

Im bring my UTM Lean counterpart bak town n PuiSee is showing her new gain UM最高理事
CEO prowess by posing no more "V"

At Kbox wf the guys and the only girl~ Itz always like this!

Huh, my life in Uni is gettin more n more archi ad....We thought 1st sem will b d start of the "Architorture", oni when i bak to UTM after CNY, i realised the true startin is yet to come. People from other courses will always tell me, "Get ya life!"....Duh, of coz i wanted to juz hang out whenever and get to be the most "un-busy" ppl in the uni to join many clubs in the uni and got involved in alot of function/event....blah blah blah. Those are just bubble dreams when u are studyin' architecture. Probably different from other ppl who get into uni, most of the time they just pick this subject with low cutting mark or simply pilih je, i enter architecture with my own will very clear that i want it. So, sometimes, im just tired people saying, especially the "neighborhood" where they will always said "luckily i'm not studying this course". Dunno y but SOMEHOW i get annoyed n i give them this "H.A.H.A" look replying them in my heart, "Urgghh, im unlucky eh?". Am i being sensitive? Nah, simply Fat Lan Zha(in english its frustrated or in modern term frustrated and emo)...Getting alot of worksss to do, not really ;p Simply just some homework for CNY but i kept delaying my work to after CNY, which is the reason why i didn't sleep for the last two day and the 1st few days when i got back to UTM. 

I was really really really sleepy this morning, Dr Rubi asked me how old she is. I said 50++ and she immediately give me this "ALAMAK" respond and wanted to strangle me on the spot. She then explained wanted to contrast n to show how young i am to said im sleepy in the morning, though i think nowadays its the norm of this n the coming generations ;P...Then Sp whisper during the "aftermath", "sui la u!"....Sorry, few days w/o sleeping already makes Kael a noob boy....@@

Baby January

It's my birthday month, and i didn't have the chance to use any of the birthday month offers, sigh........

Perhaps i'm too busy? Nah, not really.......

.....um.....

Seriously, i really do not have any time to do other things like go to watch movie every weekend, window/target-lock shopping, writing a few drafts for my blog, browsing things i'm interested on the net, day-dreaming, jogging (i dont think it's in my daily routine, though ;P)...

Days passing by faster, and i'm getting  older (*choy!I'm still young wad!*) more mature =)

It's my birthday not long ago(a week ago? XP), luckily it's Sunday, PHEEEWWW~ Sunday is kinda like a stress free day, work free day(not really), class free day, punctuality free day(so dat i can sleep longer..) and argument free day! ;)

 I'm eating Kimchi Ramen~ And it taste not bad, RM16.90 (of coz...=.=)

 Three Hiao Poh (Xc: Wo bu shi!!!)

From left: Gan, Xc, Poh

 WynGy, apparently taking break from emo cycle, enjoying his green tea....

XC expensive Bento...cost almost RM30.00....

 Arrggghhhh!!! Not pain at all.....

I don't need to explain what this indicate....

The 6!!!( one is missing coz buying lady gaga t-shirt for me in SG)

Zhilin: I love that shirt vy much!!! Thx!!!! Imma monster!!!

And of coz, thanks for the cakes!!! I love the Marble Cheesecake!!!

And finally, our(Gan,Cat, and me) baby was born on 27th January, in D'Rimba, Mersing, Johor!!!! It's the shelter project i talked about before, well, as you can see, it's not that much of a tent, since its not waterproof, but, come on, we are to design a "delightful" shelter that celebrates the site and the view!

Its a sculpture, a furniture, and a shelter, mainly just to shade the harsh sunlight by filtering the sun ray with the baby blue fabric. I was worried ALOT before the shelter assembled but after all, it did stand for a very long time, i would expect it to be the least stable of all, but it turns out it can withstand the strong winds n stand for a nite (IF w/o rain XP)! Well, the shelter making trip is really delightful, in the sense that we can see our absurd design taking form in real life, regardless the crits and the assessment, woo~ Simply amazing! By the way.....the sea over there is not much of a sea, since it dunnot smell like the actual sea did... XP

 Me lay down in my shelter~ not completely comfortable as u can see ;P

My China friend, Meow Shi, i call him, Cat

The owner of the beach said there are raw gold ores around the shores, but im not digging it ;P

Morning breeze......