The Girl from Ipanema

By Astrud Gilberto and Stan Getz

Itz a nice, chilling oldies... Listen to it, when ur in the mood~

Things to inform u guys.....

K....herez da thing....

Heard some rumors whr u haf to send ya Lappie to factory if ya screen got problem or u cannot claim it even with warranty. Truth is, juz call the technical support, which i did it in my case, n hell yeah, 20 minutes of home services ended my 3 months of worries!

Point being, sometimes MOST OF THE TIME,opinions are alwayz juz opinions, YOUR ACTION is better than words, not a better expression, but a better proof of who i m.

Ok....i noe im startin to spin off from the topic again....Well, thatz all im gonna say, for now.

*Seriously, if ya lappie gt any problem, at all, simply call the technical support. Juz ignore those "warranty useless","they dun cover", "find d pc shop across the street to fix it" n othr unclaimed bullshyt. It's ALWAYS ur right to find out the truth YOURSELF.

And Thus.....

The hardest time of the week, of course, u can guess, ey?

Just revisited the photos from the past, photos of everyone, friends and family.
Don't wanna waste too much time with the dead objects, this will be very short.
I'll be back to UTM 2ml.

Well, he has finished his journey, guess it's my time to move on too.
The mood now is the most intense, however, i should also get over it..

It's childish to hate a thing because just a moment of disappointment.
Till i get back, this home, will become better, no matter where we are.

是时候，继续迈进未完成的数十年。

A lil' Light still Sparklin' in The Dark

From this.......

to this!

I know the details might be a little awkward, this is the staircase that i rushed before the last few hours heading back to Kampar. It should looks more better than that but i'm satisfy with it, at least the form is still there and it do not deviate much from the original thought. I ventured a lot for this staircase, in the sense that i figure out the structural system myself, since there are not much staircases out there that support by tensional force, my precedence studies rather focus on the cable system that worked on bridges. In the end, it surprised me, because the big D do possess strong stability. Well, in real life, is it possible to build this? I believe it is possible. Anyways, in a time like this, at least, thr is still some lil thing that delighting mood. Perfect or not, its my baby, and i can nv deny my love to him her(some refer to the backdrop as the father while the curved I-column as the Great Mother)

photography by SP .Tan

Anywhere, but here

And then the milliner, and the man
Of the appalling trade,
To take the measure of the house.
There'll be that dark parade

Of tassels and of coaches soon;
It's easy as a sign,--
The intuition of the news
In just a country town.

Came as a shock, i had received 16 missed calls from my bros n sis, intuitively knowing these calls must be another sign of the upcoming tragic event. After returning call to my brother, my breath pause for a moment, i can sense the chills penetrating deep into the bottom of my heart, my hands began to shook unwillingly. For a moment of blank, i felt nothing, completely empty and lost. Noises in the studio gradually grown louder. This is the moment that i had lost someone important in my life for the first time. 

Got back to Kampar 6am on Friday and it's raining. The moment i saw my dad's photo, well, tears are not shading, perhaps i have cried enough for things that had been going on and on lately, already knowing that his death is already near anytime, but my heart became heavier. Maybe due to some past events, i'd been masking myself ever since. I know what lies beneath my face of abnormally calm. I'm still feeling uneasy about it, however, this feeling did not make that much impact as other imagined that i might have been reacted far more worse than that. Not only after looking at the peaceful look on my dad's face, i felt lifted a bit, at least, it's in his own will to accept his final rest.

I already numb seeing the crying face of people. There are people who kept silent all along the funeral, there are also people who are complete strangers showing sympathy and there is no questioning about their sincerity. There are also these people who came in for a short while without any eyes contact with us and then left unnoticed, as if what they care is the juicy gossips to be distributed throughout the whole town. Worst of all, there are also people who i kept asking myself, "are they crying for real?"

Though, I received some messages, be it in Fb or sms, i was surprised that thr r some of those messages from people who i'd lost contact for long time ago and also people who i barely knows. In a time like this, i'm glad to know who my true friends really are. They never fail supporting me in the time of harshness not only this time, but for the past few years of hardest moments in my life, they're always willing to stand besides me and lend their ears even when they are not around. I'm greatly blessed with these friends. Thank you guys! Ur supports are one of the greatest blessing in my life!

This town, that i once called home, once a place that full of faces that i was familiar with is now becoming complete stranger to me. I'm tired with all the misunderstanding, scandals, cheating, tragedies and heart-breaking events that happened in this place.

The reason that i love this place is solely because of my friends and family. Of course, that does not mean that i want to leave this place and never come back again.....perhaps a break from here i what i need the most.

before i end.........

Dad, thank you so much for all that u gave me. I miss u so much and i'll be stronger and always have ya lessons learned, in this lifetime. Rest in peace.